Yayness!

Ok so Saturday I'm very nervous while going in to be weighed at Weight Watchers because I didnt know how much the week of sickness was going to hurt me. But I had actually lost 1 pound! Yay! So in total I have lost 5.8 pounds in 7 weeks. This week I have high hopes and high standards.

Another thing I tried to do different is reading while working out. My friend said that she reads while on the stationary bike and barely feels anything and can go on forever. Well I dont have a stationary bike (but want one!) but I do have the eliptical machine which has totally become my friend and it has a space designed for placing a book while you workout. Perfect! So I tried it out and it works. Its really really hard to read while jogging on the machine and always moving but somehow I can keep my place most of the time and time does go by faster and I get further in my book! Lately I will try to read a book and then just get distracted with other things but now I have specific times to read, when i work out. So its a win-win situation. The only thing that was on the down side is my workout pace slowed. I found that I have fewer steps after I finish because I slowed down while reading in order to read the page better. The faster I go the more I move around meaning the more I cant read. But I think that it is worth it. I feel that a slightly slower pace isnt going to hurt me that bad since mentally I feel more inclined to workout so I can get further in my book. So its a workout motivation :D which is what I need.

Also, I find that I sometimes end up taking 2 showers a day. One in the morning to start off the day if I have to be somewhere and then one after I workout which can be middle of the day or night. So I think I need to plan my days better before hand. If I know Ill be doing something in the morning then try to make do with my unrully hair or wake up earlier so I can workout. Or if I have something at night, then work out in the morning then shower for the day. I dont know, I just need to plan better is all.

On Sunday in releif society they always have a good news minute and no one was saying anything so I raised my hand and blurted out that I was on a diet plan and had lost 5.8 pounds so far. I shocked myself because I wasnt going to tell anyone until I had lost at least more than 10 pounds because then its noticable and more of a success. But I like that I told them because I was happy that I had crossed the 1st 5 pound hurdle and I was proud of it. Also this is another way to have support. Now I am held responsible by the relief society to lose weight. So if I dont I will feel like I let them down, but I wont because this is going to be a SUCCESS! And of course being the generation we are now, most of the girls there (even the ones with perfect figures) want to be on a diet or think they should be on a diet so its not so taboo.

For FHE tonight I signed up for refreshments and brought coffee cake because someone requested it. I knew it was going to be loaded with sugar and just sinfully delicious but I made it anyway. While taking it out of my car a girl saw me and asked which diet I was on and that she wanted to join. So I told her that I go to Weightwatchers and then she saw the coffee cake and got really excited and asked if it was from Weightwatchers. My heart sank. No they werent, they are loaded with calories (and later when I tried it also loaded with too much sugar! I had 2 bites and threw it away, wasnt worth it! Different recipe next time.) and she said then she wouldnt eat one. Well that is not what I wanted! I want people to eat what I make, and I want them to like it! I had just never thought that some of them were in the same boat as me. So now Im going to take healthy things to Break the Fast and Sunday Social and FHE and proadly say that it is 'the healthier version' and Just As Good!

Week 7
Total loss: 5.8
Current weight: 173.4
WorkOut: ummm didnt keep track that well but around 2.5-3 miles on eliptical in all
Realizations: I am not the only one on a diet, I feel better both physically and in my self-esteem, more energetic and flexible(though I might start doing pilates to be extra flexible and shed some of these inches).

Week of the Sloth

Ok so last sunday I woke up with a horrible sore throat and stayed home hoping some rest will make it go away. Monday I tried working out but something was off. My sore throat was getting worse so Wednesday morning I check out Webmd because I had woken up at 6am that morning in pain. After looking at all the different diagnosis for sore throats I supposed I had Strep Throat. So I get a doctors appointment that day and yes I did have strep throat. I started getting better Thursday and its getting better everyday. The only thing that makes me sad is that I didnt work out at all last week and I didnt track everything I ate, which was alot of pudding, potato soup, raspberry sherbert, etc. And I dont even know if I lost anything this week because I didnt weigh in on Saturday morning.

So what now? I am feeling alot better so I just get back to working out 3 times a week, watching what I eat, and moving forward! Not much to report other than that, I was exhiled in my house because I was contagious like the whole week so nothing happened. So yes there is the update for last week. The week of the strep throat and slothfulness.

Weigh In!

Yayness! I am sooo excited I lost 2.2 pounds this week! I have been so discouraged these last couple weeks because I gained and then lost just .2 pounds....I mean really what is that? .2? Thats like so little bit! So I am so excited that I lost this week. This week after my blunder on Wednesday I also had Jasem's birthday last night and we went to Chili's. So I looked up the menu online and decided before hand what I would order. So I had their guiltless Cedar Plank Tilapia with brocoili which comes out to only 4 points and then with tradition we ordered 2 Paradise Pies to share. Now Paradise Pies are exactly that, Paradise! So yummy and gooey that it is 40 points for 1!!! Can you believe that? I can, its so good it has to be 40 points. So by splitting it, I only had 20 points and had eaten really light things all day so it worked :D. Mark my words, I am a success story in progress!

This week loss: 2.2 pounds

Total loss: 4.8 pounds

Week number: 6

Energy WipeOut

Ok so today went not so well. I started the day off by getting into my work out clothes and mindset at around 3pm. I went out, turned the radio on, stretched, and started going at it on the elliptical. But apparently I put it on a programmed setting which Ive never tried before and 10 minutes into it I just couldnt keep going. It would only go up resistance every 2 minutes which left me bored and tired because it never let up. Normally the program I do is when the resistance goes up 4-8, 6-9, 6-10, 6-9, 6-8, then down 4-3. I realize that this might not make sense but it does. And I like this routine because then Im always thinking 'ok I just got to get over this hurdle and then it will be easy again'. So after 10 minutes of going nowhere with no end in sight I get off.

By this time Im really frustrated because I didnt finish my work out. I have a tendancy to quite things when they get uncomfortable. So after 5 minutes with the pull-down-arm-thingy-bar I go back to the elliptaical and make sure it is on the setting I want and go at it again. but this time Im so tired and frustrated that after 5 minutes Im off again. I find a great episode of Oprah talking about spirituality and lay down on the couch for a tinsy winsy nap, basically just to rest a bit.

Ive been very good with my diet today except for the brownie, but I totally counted it and thought that the rest of the day Id be good. WRONG! Paul comes home and finally after months of not doing anything with him he finally says he wants to hang out with me :). So we rent movies but theres a special where you buy popcorn and candy and soda and its supposed to be cheaper. Wrong again, in the end we find out it only saved us a dollar, what a crock! ..... So needless to say I went over my daily points by alot... But tonight at 12:10am I went back out there and tried it again. and this time I did it all! I finished my work out and even had energy to go over the time limit (I like to make the numbers even, If Im at 2853 steps I need to keep going to make it an even 3000). So really I didnt do too bad today because I made up for half of it working out but I still shouldnt have gone over. Now I only have 1 bonus point for the rest of the week so I need to be extract strict with myself. Which I can totally do, I just need to remember to eat all of my points but not go over.

After all of this there is still good news and a rainbow to marvel at. I spent the morning at Ingrids daycare center with the kids playing with the hose for waterday. I had a delicious brownie and a soda which I havent drank soda in forever. Last night I bought a new bathing suit that fits and is flattering while still modest. Took a midnight swim in my new bathing suit with Ingrid last night. Personalized very cute bags from walmart $5 that has different colored music notes on it. And I upped my work out today because of all the give-ups earlier. And I drank all my water today!

Today:(approximately)
3500 steps
700 calories burned
1.5 miles

Realization:
I have more energy at night when I workout because there are less radio commercials. At 3pm-4pm when I normally do it, they almost never have a song going. Maybe I should burn a cd of workout songs. Any suggestions for upbeat good workout songs? I've already decided Lady Gaga, and Beyonce are good, also maybe the upbeat fun Spice Girls (not the sappy slow ones though).

Wake Up Call!

Ok so I know that I haven't written in this blog in...well in forever but it seems like either theres nothing to say or I say things on Facebook. And Facebook is nice but there are some things that I dont want the whole world to know. Sometimes I just want to talk to a select few or just none at all. But I still need to get it out of my system and into the universe so this blog will serve that purpose. My blog will take on a new perspective since I myself have taken this new perspective. I have a determination to lose over 100 pounds. As of yet I have not set an actual date to accomplish this but it is out there. While before I may have been on a diet and lost 20 pounds here or there I have never actually kept any of it off. Weight Watchers has worked for me before and that is what Im continueing now. It is week 5 of my dieting and exercise and I have lost 2.6 pounds. Not exactly the start I wanted but I've never really exercised this much before so I think that was muscle building.

I've never known a time when I wasn't overweight and growing up it was just the natural course of my lifestyle. Recently one of my best friends just looked at me and asked with a seriousness if I even wanted to lose weight. This took me by surprise, of course I WANTED to lose weight...so why didnt I do it? I had to think about this because who really wants to be overweight? I know I dont! But at the same time I realized that I have lived my life using this weight as a sheild. A sheild against friends, a sheild against my family, and a sheild againts anyone who might think Im pretty. I didnt want anyone to want me so I keep this weight because it is unattractive. And so far apparently it has worked very well. But in this point in my life I dont need this sheild anymore. I am overcoming my past and looking towards the future. A future with a family and people who love me and people I can love wholeheartedly.

This blog is going to serve as a Journal for this journey I am taking towards a new and improved healthy Angela. I can do this, I am already doing this, and it is a habit I am building for life. This should be interesting!

Beginning weight = 276 May 9, 2009
End weight = 176 ... ?

Today:
Went over 5 points :( darn you FHE refreshments!
1.25 miles on elliptical
3003 steps
burned 650 calories

Last Week:
Went over points almost everyday
Upped work out routine, 3 times
Lost .2 pds which makes me back at a total of -2.6 pds

Goals this Week :
Work out more than 3 times
lose 3.5 pds
drink more water
Dont spend as much money :/
Start summer scripture reading